Journal: showing affection

Last night when I was burping Sofia, I looked at her closely and realized how precious she is and that I haven’t looked at her enough. It melted my heart. It even hurt when I think she will become a big girl soon. No, no, I want to hug her this way and give her hundreds of kisses every time she wakes up. Can I still do that when she’s an adult? Why I don’t remember my mom kissing me and hugging me when I was a kid? Not a single time! I’m sure my mom loves me just as much as I love Sofia, but why I have no memory of physical closeness? It’s probably due to our chinese culture of being distant. I would definitely change that. I want Sofia to feel loved all the time, to have memory of mom’s affection, to kiss her and tell her i love her even when she’s a grown up. And most importantly, I want to do them because I have strong urge to do them!!! It must have been hard for my parents to restrain themselves from giving me affection. Wooo! what a realization. Instead of blaming my parents from not giving me physical affection, now I know how hard it must have been for them. It also made me realize how lucky I am for having Sofia here in the US where showing physical affections is encouraged.
people say becoming a parent makes you appreciate more your parents. So true!!!

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Yesterday Sofia didn’t stir much before waking up for the day so I had ME time. It made a huge difference to the rest of my day! 🙂

After her first morning nap we went out to do some errands. Dressed Sofia for the cold weather.

she looks so cute in this outfit (I know, I probably say this every time I dress her)

Back home, I assembled the freezer. I got this one, which is the smallest one in the market but it turned out bigger than I thought. it has a lot of space.

Bought baskets to put inside

Transferred pumped milk to the new freezer. I was amazed how much milk I already have freezed! and I got them drop by drop! they are like gold!!! 😯

corns on the right side. they are my daily staple so whenever it’s on sale I buy a lot!

lunch for mom

Beef, sausage and salad

she eats way more meat an I do! Good that she has a strong digestive system!

Lunch for me was a cleaning-fridge kind of stir fry and a corn

Eggplant, lotus root, green pepper, mushroom in olive preserve sauce

Once we put S to sleep I dyed my mom’s hair.

I didn’t know how easy is to dye hair. it took me <10 min to apply it, 20 mim later all gray hair was gone!

Dinner was served early (trying to start the night routine for S at 6:20)

last serving of roasted butternut squash turkey pastel

seaweed egg soup

S slept from 7:20-2am and then 3-8! 11.5 hrs of sleep made her a happy baby this morning! 🙂